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August 28, 2005 ( life )
I don't have a goal, I just have a direction.
I think this lacking goal causes problems when I'm in between, waiting, and looking. My "Direction" as such is international IT development, but really, what does that mean? What is my dream job? Time and time again I find that I really don't like managing people. I enjoy working together with people who have complimentary skills with some overlap, who are similarly motivated. I like organizations that are as flat as possible, with the least amount of pyramiding and pandering to having nice titles. Similarly, I really despise red tape and bureacracy, as they almost always tend to get in the way more than anything else.
I'm really ready for school to start up right now. I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels this month in DC, wading through the bureacracies and check-lists of the basic requirements of getting through, and, mainly due to lack of effort, newness in town, and people to go out with, I'm missing Austin, in the sense that nothing so far really requires DC over Austin; tho in a week that will not be the case, it has been for 4 weeks now, so is getting tiring.
I feel like if I had a more specific, solid goal, as opposed to a laundry list of things I want to avoid in life, I'd be doing better, but as it is, the vagueness is un-motivating.
So, let's codify why I'm spending 80k to get a Masters degree in DC:
- I like travelling and living in other countries, and hope to do some integrated into my job.
- I feel that development work is important, and so far the most attractive area of work for me as a career of any sort
- IT continues to be one of my central skills, but I do not want to be an IT professional with many sets of MS certifications after my name.
- IT-in-Development requires creative problem solving with small budgets -- which strongly appeals to my desire to fix everything in the world with duct-tape and baling wire.
- IT-in-Development can be applied locally, in education, as well as Internationally, and also eventually (with more experience) as a topic for writing or academia, all of which appeals to my inner commitment-phobe.
- DC in specific is where international dev in the USA happens, and a focus for a lot of progressive domestic development work, so it's a good place to be for a while to make contacts and explore job horizons.
OK, that helped. Still, tho. Damn houses-being-torn-down, I should've not gotten here so soon.
Posted by griffjon at August 28, 2005 03:55 PM
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